I am sure this will go on unread forever.
I just needed to pour myself out for a minute.

I am a fool.

I am falling for the one person I shouldn't.

I can't tell a soul.

I fucked up immensely and now I have nothing with him.
I couldn't just put my heart aside and be his friend.

I am so fired.


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So I went for my normal pre-natal appt.

My blood pressure was still high, I am still insanely swollen, and there was protein in my urine. So my doctor sent me off to the hospital for monitoring. Evan and I just got back a little bit ago. My BP was way down in the hospital and my blood tests came back ok. I am on bedrest until further notice and I will know more tomorrow when I call my OB.
I must say anything is better than sitting in that hospital.

Ugh...

I hope my baby will make it to 37 weeks!!!

Only 4 weeks and 4 days to go!!!

since I posted one of these. I really think I will start using this again now that I have so much time on my hands.

How is everyone?

Hello anyone and everyone.

It has been over a year since I've said a word. Silence is truly golden. California is a mild drag. That's life. I will be back in Portland in April.